Good evening blog-world! For those who were actually giving this site any attention, I have been away for the past month. Honestly I’ve been away from the site since June but I periodically placed two blogs so I didn’t seem dead. Well as you can see, I deleted every blog entry I ever wrote, except for my last whiny one. I’m a very nostalgic person so that seemed impossible to do. I just wanted to start all over. I’m eighteen now. It’s time for me to grow up. Although I’m almost nineteen, I’m going to spend plenty of time with my site in the next few months so I might as well make it worth while.

What has a person like me been up to since my last blog? Not getting paid. No seriously I’m just waiting for things to work out. I still have my job as a case manager; however, I haven’t been to the facility in nearly a month and a half. I’ve been studying web design. Something I’ve gotten so much better at since my first theme. Yeah I apologize for you having to stare at it for so long. It’s gone now so let’s give thanks! I’m still waiting for my three months of pay I have yet to receive. Working for a state-certified facility means you get to feel the wrath of the budget cuts. However, it has been confirmed for the 30th time that the funds will be released within the next two weeks. So somebody is going to take their $$$ and invest it into my future. 

As for the site, you may want to change whatever links you had. I’ve intergrated most of the site into Wordpress. Be patient with me because I’m coming up with a better navigation system.  I’ll probably get into the dynamic sidebars or something or drop-down menu navigation like I had intended. I was planning on validating my CSS/XHTML and I’m going to get there eventually. I’m going to come up with better resources and tutorials as soon as I get back on my laptop. For now, I’ll do blogging and I’ll be posting articles as well. I also have a new empty Ask & Answer page. I updated my webmistress page, took down the fonts (I do fear getting sued), and probably some other stuff so browse around.

I’ll try to wrap this post up but I just finished this Japanese drama called 1 Litre of Tears about a girl named Aya Kitō who had spinocerebellar degeneration disease. It’s based on a true story and the Aya had the disease for 10 years before passing away in 1988. I don’t think I’ve ever cried as much during one series as I did watching that show. For the fact that one girl who was three years younger when diagnosed, had such courage and had to face so many hardships inspired me personally to be a better person. I do think everyday we take things/people for granted. The show made me think harder about my dedication towards my loved ones and how much I would go through just to see them smile everyday. Aya had a lot of people in her life who couldn’t carry half of the burdens she did, and who somewhat gave up on her.

Yeah we’re all only human, and some of us can’t handle such extremeties. If some of us were in Aya’s position, slowly loosing control over our bodies and dying at the same time, wouldn’t we want to have the same friends? Wouldn’t we want to have the same people who say they love us now around us; even if we are facing inevitable death, to spend the time we have left enjoying life with those people? Life means so much and I’d rather be cherishing it and doing the best I can for others to enjoy it as well.

Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing - 木藤亜也